Saturday, January 08, 2005
Why.... *sigh*, im tryin to figure out wats happenin?? izit my fault, my mistakes or WAT?? don't do dis to me cos i feel very bad, tell me off my face if i did sumthin which made u changed out of a sudden, i feel u're sumhow avoiding me. u despise me don't u? should at least give me a bloody goood reason y im feeling dis way, y am i seems so invisible to u, i felt so left out n stranded...
Apart frm wat we used to share in the past, did not seem to bother u nemore.... (tryin to console myself here) people do change yan, so is she as well her frens circling her. they're more interesting, more outgoing,hyp,cool unlike u, yan... wat have u..?? i'm just the ordinary gal nxt door, nuthin much to compare. u sing praises to ur frens but can never mentioned even my name... r u ashamed of me or sumthin?? its a sad way to put it, but i guess im losing a fren. Are u xpecting sumthin frm me in return of the favours i asked for, well i could only thanked u for now & dat my prayers for ur well-being are always for you. i'm sorry i can't fulfill ur expectations. im not forgetting wat uve done for me & i really appreciate it alot.
However, im still left with the BIG QUESTION MARKS in my head....why r u treating me dis way, like a stranger or a beggar asking for a fren..... a true fren. I just missed those times when we were together, share alot of things in common... how i wish i could stop the time, wind it back frm where we started our friendship, the innocence, the sillyness, the unpredictable u, the original you.....
I guess sumthin is better to be left unsaid rather than make a big fuss over it... i really dun understand wats got into you. I won't bother you for now,let time decides where dis friendship is going or is it sinking?? i really don't know.....
