Monday, July 17, 2006
this is it....im leaving
Its time! im gone for the better... i used to ponder when my colleagues had to leave the company for better prospect or to pursue studies, i asked myself when will my turn be. its unpredictable, really.... u can never know when opportunities come. But when it comes, it knocks just once and u decide to leave or to stay. And this is it... my time has come. I can't survive any longer at Panasonic, with different people taking over, i tink i rather not stay. Ive worked w/the techs for almost 2 yrs and i must say i've got no regrets. we get along well, we settled our differences with much respect. They make the place a better to work in.. We were in our happier times then... when changes came in abruptly. First, Susan left followed by Daniel(he was asked to go cos someone just couldn't stand him)den lisa, den its me... its good in the sense, i don't hv to face him anymore, i don't hv to follow his instructions which i never did, i don't hv to see his biasness, and most importantly i respect his decision ~ i was told by a trusted source, im the next one to be 'eliminated' after daniel. so there u go... im giving u face now, hope u enjoy your stay @ panasonic. i don't mean to be rude, but im not hard up to work with you. Kindly pls look yourself in the mirror 1st ok, don't try to act smart or rather yah yah papaya. Btw this is way=t u wanted.... eliminate us one by one but instead one by one leaving you to handle the HPCC, not forgetting ur SUPER assistant which u promised her a contract....i just do hope u don't play her out and put her in high hopes cos she really counting on you. Enough said, i shall present you my last day pix @ panasonic... i thot i would cry, but i didnt.... i cried on thursday instead when weling handed me a scrap bk titled 'our memories'. she started crying, when i saw her cry i cried too. i possibly can't see people crying, im prone to cry when i saw someone crying.... i just can't see ppl cry, i tink i feel the emotions inside her...its ok babe, we'll keep in touch alrite, i heed your advice to drink plenty of water, i'll miss u saying Baozhong, shouting & mispronouncing my name in purpose ~ Nornana. The junior babes of HPCC, lisa & peisee. i really enjoyed working w/u both! peisee, just bear for another week hokay.
Friday, July 14, 2006
SCANNING TODAY? NO...
Mum's not going scanning today for sure, its gonna be tommorow morning. I'm worried sick for mum & yet this doctors are delaying her treatment. Her scanning was scheduled today, but dun noe for wateva reason they gotta to do it tomoro instead. According to mum, the docs said they shall do a full body scanning tomoro, if today will not be a full body. But why??? Different machine ah?? i still wonders... nvr get to see the doc today. I simply don't understand or was it my mum who doesn't understand what the doc was saying, cos she can't really understand English... hmmmm, I understands now.....
Thursday, July 13, 2006
A Soothing Message, A Calming Effect
I felt much better today, but still my heart aches when i recapped wat the specialist said yest... I went to werk as per normal and i could feel my eyes were swollen; good for me I had my glasses on to prevent frm those KPOs frm asking wat happen to my eyes. It helps & ppl didin't even notice at all.... I keep on hearing those words(doc's explaination) repeating again and again in my mind and dat hurts; really. Whenever i heard it, my tears just flows endlessly. I gotta go to the ladies & get my wet eyes dried up and be composed. For once i felt helpless.... @ 9.30am sharp i was startled by my handphone's msg tone. It caught me by surprised.... it reads :~
I felt much better today, but still my heart aches when i recapped wat the specialist said yest... I went to werk as per normal and i could feel my eyes were swollen; good for me I had my glasses on to prevent frm those KPOs frm asking wat happen to my eyes. It helps & ppl didin't even notice at all.... I keep on hearing those words(doc's explaination) repeating again and again in my mind and dat hurts; really. Whenever i heard it, my tears just flows endlessly. I gotta go to the ladies & get my wet eyes dried up and be composed. For once i felt helpless.... @ 9.30am sharp i was startled by my handphone's msg tone. It caught me by surprised.... it reads :~
Jgn..sedih krana penyakit ibu awak.
Banyak2 berdoa semoga sakitnya tidak serious
dn dapat rawatan dgn segera. Mohon pada Allah,
Dia maha mendengar keluhan hambanya
(Don't be saddened by ur mum's illness.
Always pray to God may her illness isn't serious
and dat she get treatment as soon as possible.
Seek frm Allah, He listens to your sorrows)
This was frm my mum in-law. I tink abah saw the difference in me when i reach hm and salam him. i just couldn't control my tears. Or perhaps my hubby had told dem abt mum's plight, & notice a change in me? I really don't noe..... Im just glad i have somebody to confide in other than my hubby. As for my hubby, thanks for being there for me without fail. Thanks to my colleagues(techs, Peisee,angelia,weiling), ex-colleagues(lisa,vki,tim) & frens like Raudha & sharifah who showed so much concern and Eileen who gave a bottle of chicken essence for mum to try, cos it helps & improves the blood circulation, Ah wong for suggesting for Mum to eat more tomatoes. I felt so great & glad to have people like you guys. Thanks gals & guys... N to our future Doc- Tim, u impressed me, do continue studying & hope u can achieve ur ambition one day :)
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
I left office earlier today so that i could spend more time with mum in the hospital. Her condition did improved a little & real glad that her appetite was getting even better. And she had repeatedly saying she's going to be discharge soon. She even assured me the nurses had checked her blood and it seemed fine. Dat is wat according to her, but i got the feeling she won't bw discharge dat soon, cos she had to go blood transfusion to stabilise her blood count.
But wateva the condition is, i do hope its nuthin serious. We still awaiting for the docs to actually brief us on wats happening to mum as why the blood count was very low. In the evening , a lung specialist (which was refered by mum's doc) approached us and began his theory. He started of by informing us wat he saw frm mum's x-ray which was taken yesterday. There's a mass, a size of an orange was seen on her upper left lung and he can't really tell if dat 'mass' is a good or bad one. Mum got to go thru scanning tomoro for them to identify the 'mass'. My heart was thumping hard, felt lump in my throat, my mind went beserk searching for possible ways to have my mum cured, i realised i don't have any cos im not a doctor. I tried to hold back my tears, stay calm and tell myself i shouldn't shed tears in frnt of her, she mustn't see me cry. No way! Alhamdullilah, i manage to do dat.
We turned silence..... taken aback by the doctors words, i prayed hard to Allah n stay positive. On my way home, i cried my hearts out. i just can't bear it any longer...i had to let it out sumhw.
Monday, July 10, 2006
My mum look kinda of unwell this few days, her face shows it all. She lost her appetite instantly and that her skin turns yellow. i feel sorry for her. For dat she became rather weak & constantly coughing resulting in chest pain & became breathless sometimes. My sister brought her to the polyclinic to have her examined. As expected earlier, she have to be admitted to hospital. Sis col me saying mum refused to go. My mum is so hard headed and i tink i inherit dat frm her too. Thanks Mum!
I manage to persuade her eventually BUT on 1 condition :"Mak nak tengok Malim Kundang dulu boleh?" - kelakarkan (Mak wanna watch Malim Kundang (Malay Serial Drama) 1st can? - funny isn't it) I know she's kinda of reluctant to go; its not bcos of those needles, not bcos of those BIG gigantic pills she gotta swallow but feared she'll be diagnose for some serious illness; her only fear.
Mak went thru a blood count test & the result was extremely astonishing! Its only 5.5 compared to normal healthy person which is 12, which wasn't even 1/2. And amazingly she survived without getting herself blacked out or worst still a bad fall. She did complain of having bad headaches, but then i guess she's A STRONG WOMAN! Mum was admitted to SGH but unfortunately at that point of time they run out of beds for B class & was given the C class instead. Since we've waited long enough, we agreed on having the C class wards; not much difference neway. Mum got her attire and the bed was near the entrance, she got too excited! And dat was already like 9pm when we got the bed, meaning visiting HRS are over. We try to make her feel at ease by telling her we'll come back to see her and she have lots of frens here to get acquainted. Hope everyting turns well for her.......
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Thank you so much for the applause!(just imagining tings) Yah yah yah, im back eventually. At least i remember i do have a blog ...and importantly im so damn FREE now. so why not got my time in here and start updating this abandoned blog. Neway got alot of things to tell yah! Just give some time to warm up for new entries... Thanks for reading and patiently waiting for another entry of mine. So sit back and enjoy.....
