Wednesday, July 12, 2006
I left office earlier today so that i could spend more time with mum in the hospital. Her condition did improved a little & real glad that her appetite was getting even better. And she had repeatedly saying she's going to be discharge soon. She even assured me the nurses had checked her blood and it seemed fine. Dat is wat according to her, but i got the feeling she won't bw discharge dat soon, cos she had to go blood transfusion to stabilise her blood count.
But wateva the condition is, i do hope its nuthin serious. We still awaiting for the docs to actually brief us on wats happening to mum as why the blood count was very low. In the evening , a lung specialist (which was refered by mum's doc) approached us and began his theory. He started of by informing us wat he saw frm mum's x-ray which was taken yesterday. There's a mass, a size of an orange was seen on her upper left lung and he can't really tell if dat 'mass' is a good or bad one. Mum got to go thru scanning tomoro for them to identify the 'mass'. My heart was thumping hard, felt lump in my throat, my mind went beserk searching for possible ways to have my mum cured, i realised i don't have any cos im not a doctor. I tried to hold back my tears, stay calm and tell myself i shouldn't shed tears in frnt of her, she mustn't see me cry. No way! Alhamdullilah, i manage to do dat.
We turned silence..... taken aback by the doctors words, i prayed hard to Allah n stay positive. On my way home, i cried my hearts out. i just can't bear it any longer...i had to let it out sumhw.
